Back in the game.....

Okay....I'm back in the blogging game. I took a hiatus for a bit and deeply missed this therapeutic outlet.....
Soooooo.....I'm baaaccccckkkkkkk!
Let's get right to it.

It is always fun and exciting to share details of your life when your life it going great. It is exciting to read every one's comments and feel like you are sharing your bliss.

It is a bit more difficult for ME to share details when life seems to have thrown me a curve ball. I hate to burden friends with the 'not-so-happy' part of my life. I hate to be a 'downer'!

I have grown accustom to being the the 'strong one', the 'rock', being the 'shoulder to cry on'. I like the feeling of being needed and being there whenever and where ever I am needed. This IS who I am.....or at least, how I see myself. I feel in control, powerful, stable, organized, and confident in this role. Not only do I feel like this is the role that I have created with my wonderful friends but this is also the role that I play within my family. My parents see me as the daughter that can 'take care of herself', they turn to me for help, often. I LIKE this role in my family. Trevor's family sees me as the 'ultra-organized' mom that still has time for hobbies, sewing, cooking, and time to send flowers and little notes to family members living hundreds of miles away. I LIKE this role in my family.

Well....Just as God always has a plan...sometimes he needs to teach us something that we have overlooked or forgotten somewhere along our journey.

I guess it is time for my lesson.

It is time for me to turn to all of my wonderful friends and family that I have so deeply cherished for such a long long time. It is time for me to be vulnerable and look to others for support and help.

My best friend of seventeen years was recently diagnosed with prostate cancer. He is an amazing man with tons of humor, spirit, drive, and did I mention humor? The final outcome will be very positive and the cancer is very curable but....it has hit me like a ton of bricks. It is one of those things that you never expect to happen TO YOU. He is a very young man with a lot of life ahead of him and although the diagnosis is grim, the prognosis is bright. There are a number of treatment options, each with a very very high success rate. However, one of the most troubling issues, is that each treatment option carries with it a tough recovery and some potential long term side effects. Side effects that will impact his life in the future. This is the most devastating piece of this monster.

No matter how rough the treatment, no matter what the side effects, we will still be the best of best friends. We will continue to live life to it's fullest, love deeply, play hard, and laugh and laugh and laugh.

I am with you God....I am following your lead, I will cherish each moment, each smile, and each challenge. Guide me to be the person I need to be, I will rise to meet you.

Trevor Perry....Rocky road can be an obstacle or an ice cream....am I here to help you make BOTH disappear! I love you baby!

Your truly devoted best of best friends - Holly